67. Chastity Belt - “Different Now”

If nostalgia had a theme song it would sound something like this. There’s a transient quality to it, like a sparkler going off on a warm summer evening – it’s beautiful and enjoyable, and yet beyond that sense of wonder lies the realization that every second of enjoyment is bringing you closer to its inevitable end.

I don’t know about the rest of you, but when I think about the present – and I mean truly think about it, it sort of freaks me out. The present is so infinitesimal. It’s literally this brief, almost unfathomable knife’s edge that we perpetually exist upon or within. It’s meted out millisecond by millisecond, emerging from the stone of the past and jumping into the blur of the future. It’s gone almost before we can even grasp what it is, and yet it’s all that we know and all that we can control. Its probably why so many of us are more comfortable living within the past or the future, because it’s easier, there’s something more concrete and manageable about the permanence and lack of control that lies within the bookends of the now. It’s a dynamic that absolutely blows my mind. I can’t tell if it amazes or depresses me, and if amazement and depression are so inseparable from one another than what does that mean? What does any of it mean? Anyway, I’m done, just enjoy the jam (if you still can).