91. Marti & The Dads - “Hang Tentative”

This song encapsulates the complicated ennui of one’s twenties perfectly. It’s a feeling akin to floating in space, free of gravity, without any particular direction or goal in mind, bouncing from one vice to the next, so full of youth that you can’t help but glow with enjoyment, and yet equally full of uncertainty and the inevitable anxiety that accompanies it. Marti & The Dads sum it up perfectly when they say “Cause its so hard not to, its so hard to stay away, from the things that bring you joy at night but leave you empty during the day.”

 At a certain point life seems to become schizophrenic. You’re caught within a shift. You’re still young, and yet you’re also an adult. The list of people younger than you seems to be getting longer by the moment, and you can sense it. You’re spanning the gap, fading from one stage and on the cusp of the next. Time becomes more tangible, and you can feel yourself slowly expiring, caught between living in the present and planning for the future. Life’s catching up to you even as you beat it back. You’re not yet ready to give up what was, what you’ve enjoyed and found solace in for so long, and yet that solace is now turning into worry. It’s calcifying into a fear that you’re being left behind, that you’re somehow not where you should be, and that you need to check the past at the door and become something else, something better, or simply something different. Unfortunately, there’s no easy answer. It’s a process, as subjective as it is inevitable, but at least were all stumbling through the muck together.